Glass half full...or half empty?

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me." Isaiah 49:15-16


Well, I've finally reached my halfway point. It's been really difficult for me to be very excited about this. I just keep thinking I'm ONLY halfway done? I physically and emotionally feel like I should be done already. I cannot even imagine people who have to undergo Chemo for years. It's exhausting. Sometimes I just sit and dream about Summertime, when I'm healthy and get to be a carefree 23 year old again. Sunshine, laughter, smiles. I literally cannot wait. I think I may be the happiest person on the planet. You don't really appreciate things until they've been taken from you. There was a quote my sister, Michelle, mentioned a month or so ago that said

"Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things".

There is nothing that has ever sounded more true to me right now. For as much as I feel I'm suffering now, I really believe Cancer can be a blessing in disguise to those who have be diagnosed it. My life will never, ever be the same. I will never look at anything the way I did before. The verse I posted above has given me so much comfort the past couple weeks, because I have often asked WHY ME? Even with so many people lifting me up in prayers and thinking about me, when you are battling cancer you are really battling alone in a sense. It's me vs. cancer daily. Somedays cancer wins, somedays I win. That verse reminds me that however much I may feel like it, I am never alone.

I am so grateful for all of you who prayed for my treatment yesterday. I swear my nausea was 99% better. Please believe me, your prayers were heard!!!!

Also, my treatments have been moved to Wednesdays now to work around my school schedule at WSU this coming semester. And next Wednesday I go into get another PET scan to see how my little lymphnodes have been reacting to the chemo..and to see if I will be done with treatments in March like we were told. Please, please be praying for this scan. Even if all the cancer is gone, I will still have to finish up my treatments as planned, but if my body isn't responding as well to the chemo as my Dr hoped we may have to look at adding on radiation to my schedule.

Love you all!