I am at this very moment getting my 3rd treatment. Thanks to Santa Clause I have a brand new laptop that will actually charge! The last two weeks have been great. Despite all the stress of the holidays, Christmas was very relaxing. I loved having time with my friends and family. Last week we had to say goodbye to my sweet Grandma. I had blood work on the day of the funeral, so I wasn't able to go. My mom surprised us, and brought Grandpa back with her for Christmas!

Today my doctor let me know that my blood counts are extremely low, which explains the fatigue I have been feeling. This morning I didn't even feel like I had enough energy to get out of bed. So tomorrow I'm going to have to come back and get the shot to boost my immunity. Boo. The hair has been coming out this week. We still aren't sure if I'm going to lose it all or just thin out alot, so we haven't cut it anymore. All the hair everywhere gets annoying though. Which is why I think alot of people choose to shave it off.

Here's a little poem I found that has meant alot to me the past couple weeks. Maybe you can find some kind of encouragement in it..

"Are you living your life now as if there's no end?
Are you too quick to anger and too slow to bend?
Are your days about earning more money and fame?
Are you spending your efforts on what time shall claim?

Do you while away time when your day's work is done?
Assuming that day after day shall still come?
Do you think about life and its meaning for you?
Do you feel you've accomplished what you hoped to do?

Are you battered and bruised by life's battles and trials?
Do you seek to find refuge if just for a while?
Do the stresses of life sap your joy and strength?
Creating a life with no thought to its length?

If your answer is yes, there's a great multitude
Who are living their life with the same attitude...
Deceiving ourselves that we still have much time
To live much better in body and mind.

Just ask someone facing the end of their days
You will hear their regrets of time slipped away...
The days that were wasted-opportunities lost
Regret that it's now, that they see the great cost.

Let's begin living life now...aware it will end
Let's be slower to anger and more willing to bend
We'll be happy to know that we've given our all
And regrets will be few when we hear that great call."

-Linda Mae Richardson